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Take care all…
"Give me coffee anyday
Would not gurantee I’ll stay awake."
"If I do so much while standing up
Then I can do many more while sitting down."
Folks keep saying that when you grow older, there is a lot of things they regret not doing. Hence, the expression, I wish I was young again.
Young ones however love to say, I wish to grow up fast. Thus, wasting lots of their younger time in the process. They have this thinking that if they grow up faster, more exciting adventures would ‘pop’ up. Then when they have grew up, they find that there is absolutely no different from where they started. Again back in square one?
That is when regrets come in isn’t it? If we are the ones that love to play gamestation and computer, sometimes we will wish that we could restart the whole game and start over. Well, reality check, no matter how much we try, we can’t restart. We can’t start over and definitely can’t change the past. So what do we do? Move on, right the wrongs and knowing that we have regret for the things not done or done, we’ll do our best to live what’s left of our life. No regrets. Hold on to good principles.
Is it worth it to know you have the potential and not using it fully and then looking back saying, ‘what if?’. Well, it’s not. The feeling of guilt will keep eating you inside. And believe me, it’s not something you want on your conscience day in and day out. We want a conscience free life, where we don’t look behind our shoulders and feel the heavy burdens of past mistakes. That’s the life I want to live………
The first impression I had was "My Gosh!!!! They’re all wering BLACK!!!!!" not that it bothers me, but it got my suspicious radar up and working all of a sudden. Something fishy was up.I was told something was going to happen which thankfully eh hem……..
Anyway, for the rest of the way, the bbq went quite well. I couldn’t believe it but to my amazement the boys actually did come down and help out. Girls showed their wonderful culinary skills while boys fanned the charcoals? *from what I saw* Hahaha, not only that, not underestimate the job of fanning the charcoals, one need great patience to endure the hard task. It is an HONORABLE job. Anyway, besides that, the way they bbq the chicken, you wouldn’t be able to tell it was them who did it unless they told you so…….
We chatted the rest of the night, *no chance of playing basketball, court was taken by some boys*, had a special surprise in the middle and spagetti to top it all. All in all, it was a success. What made it special? It was the ending, where we asked for forgiveness and be forgiven in return. I hope. =P Before we started though, again the guys started acting weirdly. Matches started flying, someone keeps asking for EGGS?? Somebody holding something fishy and all had weird looks. Even after they assured us, we couldn’t be certain but thankfully, we left the scene all in one piece, a miracle…..? I guess….=P and thankfully CLEAN!!!!!!!
Conclusion, we ate, we had fun, we talked and get to know more of each other, I have………and hopefully this happy atmosphere will last till the end of semester or probably forever. I like this feeling and I will forever remember this moment. =P
I saw you that day,
Frustrated and Hurt,
How I wish to lend a hand,
To subside the pain that lurk.
You threw the ball,
As hard as you can,
Like rain your tears fall,
Swiftly and unbroken did they land.
I told you to stop,
to think of the consequences,
and yet you would not listen……….
I would had continue to rant,
but your face told me all,
you held something back,
the dam broke that night,
you had to let it out,
but I was not the one you wanted support from.
Although it sadden me,
I understood,
I gave you my silence,
wishing it was enough.
And when help came,
I left with a wish,
that you would share, unburden it all,
And in the end, I hope you would be alright.
We were not meant to be alone,
no man is an island,
Though we are surrounded with many,
Loneliness is not far away………..
I guess take the time to look around,
look at the faces that pass by,
one of them might need your support,
be there, be human and give a hand……..
-To who it may concern-
=)
Yesterday, the 13th of March was THE most anticipated day for everyone around Malaysia. It was a day where almost everybody had a a roller-coaster ride with emotion.
First, they start off with nervousness, then stress, break downs and other foreign emotions that are hard to decipher because there are all tangle up into one difficult knot. Some were numb later, some was not that fortunate that they had it all the way. I guess without a doubt, I was one of them. =>
It was the most memorable day of my life. First, have to wake up. In the beginning, waking up is tough because I slept late before that. So, when the sun decided to peek into my window, I threw the covers so I be immune. =D I guess what was so special about that day did not hit me that hard yet. In the back of my mind, I knew my bro will be sitting for their theory exams and I unconsciously pray for them and then went back to my sleep. => In the end, I had to get up though. Ah, this is where the phone comes in. It to my horror, started to ring. Distantly, I remembered switching the darn thing off so it would not disturb me, who knew it could switch itself back on. Without getting up, I was able to turn it off, not more than 5 minutes later, it started to ring AGAIN and AGAIN after that!!!!!!!!!! Bah, malas to go back to sleep, I eventually got up and got ready for the day.
Clean off the terrapin’s bucket, shower and everything later, my sis and I were ready to face THIS day, the day we receive our results for SPM. All the way, I was numb. I could not feel a thing. I guess all the nervousness were spent up the night before. It was like walking into a dream and not knowing when you wake up. All the way though, I had this nagging feeling that I was missing something. It was when my stomach decided to make itself known and with the poking from sis that I found out that I had miss breakfast. Ahhhh, lappparrrrrnyyaaa…………oh well………
So, into the school we go. Everywhere, you could hear people crying, laughing, shouting, screaming and such. I was amused and was thinking that we did not have to go to the market to get to hear this commotion. Simply said, it was beautiful and unique. To see your parents near, to see a child in their embrace with happy tears striking down their faces was the best thing one can see. To me, these were moments that everyone would like to remember. Some were with friends, some were jumping up and down, some were just screaming and mm….sadly nobody ran madly around. =D That would be comical. Anyway, so, I saw friends, I hugged some, yelled like them, jump with them and then it was my turn to see my results. It was only then did it hit me how scared i was. How utterly frightened I was. I really did not want to see my results, what is more is that my mom was going to see it with me. So, I guess I made up my mind to see the results first and break it gently to them if it was really bad. =D Who knew I got great results…..my sis too……we were ecstatic. What a joy!!!!!!!
Everything else happened like a blur. We took pictures, lots of them. Talk a lot and encourage each other more to work harder, smarter. Call, smsing, ring tones, voices filled the air, whether of joy or in sorrow it does not matter. Yesterday, was the day we had to take another step towards the working life. Yesterday was another achievement. So, I would like to thank a lot of people. My parents, family, siblings, teachers and especially friends. Friends that helped, cared and listened. =D
Thank you.
What am I to say?? This is my first time writing, so I’m sort of blank at the moment.
Today is the 2nd day of Chinese New Year. Bah, suppose to go out and go visiting some ppl. But kat sini in KL, tak banyak olang nak pgi visit. The closest so far my parents, my brother, and my sis. Olang lain…….not much. I misszzz Sabah. The land I grew up in, the land I grew to love and the land I longed tapi what to do. What’s done is done. We follow the flow and make the best of it.
After living here for so long *if you consider 3 years is long* =D, Selangor now feels like a second home. Home if where the family is bah kan. So, here I am. I met new friends, made a new life and enjoying every bit of adventure that the Lord has given me. I could go on. But that’s for another day.
For now, hols are here. Nothing to do. I got work tapi office tutup till after CNY. Till then, I’m stuck at home playing the piano and watching the tv. Occasionally bargaining *in this case bribing* my brothers to let me use the pc or the PS2……..sometimes, go out, maybe to 1 U or Megamall….that’s too far, maybe just one U. Tu hali, just celebrated my B’day. Makan kat KFC, making a fool out of ourselves kat situ, taking lots of pictures, *bet ppl were staring at us*, chatting and making ourselves at home. Bah, like we own the place. Anyway, we had great fun. Ezzy was there and my family was there. I had a great time.
To everyone out there, love you lotzzzzzzzz…………….
Enjoy, take care.
Chris here, over and out.
